When God Seems Far Away

Lately I have not  been sensing God’s presence when I pray or read His word.  I have pondered the reason why but have come up blank.  What else am I to do but keep on putting one step in front of another.   The word says that “we walk by faith not by sight”.  Nevertheless times like these are not easy.

I was reading a book and the author had quoted that famous poem, “Footprints In The Sand” by Carolyn Joyce Cary.  It tells of two sets of footprints in the sand, one the Lord’s and the other the person walking with Him.  Then there was only one set of footprints   The last part of the poem says:

I don’t understand why, when I needed you most,

You would leave me……

The Lord replied,  When you saw only one set of footprints…

That was when I carried you.

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Am I Too Busy For What is Really Important

Lately I have been too busy to update this blog.  This has got me thinking about what is really important and of value in all this activity in my life.  What am I filling my time with instead of doing a more important activity?  Am I taking time out to really think?  It is easy to be so focused on activitiy that it prevents me from focusing on working on myself or doing what is of value.

There are always appointments and obligations that we have.  That is unavoidable and a fact of life.  There is usually some free time and I do have a choice how to fill it

An organizer told me you have schedule in things that are of importance and of value to you so you will make sure those things get done.

Since I have returned to my Christian faith, I want a closer walk with God.  This is of great value to me.  To do that I need to learn more about Him by reading His Word, the bible.  Also, because He is my friend, I want to talk to him and thank him for all he has done.  This quiet time with God can be easily lost If I  start the day off in a rush of activity. I make sure this  is scheduled first thing on the morning when my mind is fresh from sleep. I ask God to direct my steps for the day.

For me my communion with God is my number one priority, it sets the tone for my day. Reflection, by journal writing, I have scheduled next.  Then my exercises, a must after hip surgery for the next year.

I have some writing obligations that I am working on at present, so for now that will take up some of my day.  When these obligations are finished, I will have to schedule in the writing of my memoir which has had to be on the back burner for the time being.

This takes care of most of my morning which starts at 7am.  I find getting up early helps me to accomplish what I want to do.  In the afternoon, I often have appointments, or activities, that need to be attended to.

I love to read with a passion. I have a free trial subscription of the Globe and Mail, while informative, it can use up a few hours easily.  I could very spend the day reading books , which I have done.  There is the TV as well that could easily take up the better part of the day if I allowed it.

Family and friends are of value and important and I need to allow more time to nurture these relationships.

I didn’t intend this post to be a lesson on organizational skills or self improvement.  I only wanted to share what is happening in my journey.

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Peace Beyond My Understanding

This has been a week of questions, unanswered ones.  The “whys” of circumstances that are harmful, hurtful, painful.

Sometimes there will never be an answer on earth.  I can only trust that God has a plan that will someday be revealed.  I don’t know or suppose to know these things.  If I start blaming or accusing God it won’t change things and probably make me feel angry and unhappy.

When violence happens such as events as of late, it is a real tragedy there is know doubt about that. Now  those that have been either injured and touched by these events need to be tended to..

This week I had some worrisome news from my Doctor.  Since she is very worried and puzzled over my lab results, I suppose I ought to be.  Sure my mind went to many possible horrible outcomes, I’m only human.

Because of my new found journey back to God, I turned the situation over to Him.  I have been at peace with the whole issue and feel calm.  I have no worries of anxieties about this.  I has to be God’s grace because I am a natural worrier.

I haven’t felt this peaceful, content and happy in a long time.  And I owe it all to God.

I recall one of the songs my dad used to sing to me: 

“What a friend I have in Jesus

, All my sins and griefs to bear

, Oh what peace we often forfeit, oh what pain we often bear,

All because we did not carry, Everything to God in prayer.”


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What About Prayer?

What is all this mystique regarding prayer? Who should pray? Are only the church leaders given power to pray? Why pray at all? Does God answer our prayers? How do I pray? These questions and many others have been asked … Continue reading

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I Returned

Today I returned to the church I went to last Sunday. It would have been easier to sleep in but I am not going to have my feelings dictate to me whether or not I attend church.

Coming back a second time, I talked to a few more people. Everyone is very friendly and loving. The service is what I call real “meat and potatoes”. Solidly based on the Scriptures; just talking about what the word of God is saying.

The music is a guitar and the songs express adoration and worship to Jesus. I was concerned because I didn’t feel a strong passion when singing, even a little indifferent. But I realized that I am there by faith and not feelings

I will continue to go, because, I feel at home and accepted. For awhile, I have had a desire to sing unto the Lord and worship Him with the other believers.

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The Sky Is Falling

Do you ever feel like the sky is falling in and totally out of your control?  Things happen, life gets in the way.  How do I transfer my spirituality into my everyday life where the rubber hits the road.

Critics have said, “Put a Christian in hot water and their true colours come out”.   What are my true colours? What are yours?

The last few days I have had some pain in my knee.  Last night my daughter noticed that the bathroom ceiling has some mould on the ceiling and is extremely soft to the touch.  In other words, the ceiling is full of water from a leak from the suite above mine and eventually will fall in if not tended to,

I find both of these issues troubling to say the least.  But, here is a test.  How much do I trust God and His omnipresence?  He is everywhere and cares for the sparrow that falls, how much more will He care for me, His Word says  This the whole crux of the matter.  I either believe that the bible is the inspired word of God or I don’t believe that  it is so.  If I believe His Word is true, then I must take his promises literally  His ways are not always my ways.

So what did I do about these two really big issues happening at this time?  I turned them over to God in prayer.  Once I did that I felt settled inside.  The panic mode changed to one of rest and peace. Trust in God and somehow this will work out one way or another.  I took care of the practical, emailed the strata’s management company and had a friend look at the ceiling.  My friend would have noticed the mould if it was there 5 days ago when he was last here,.  So it seems that the water and dampness may have been happening  for awhile.  As for my knee, icing it and taking medication, relieves the symptoms until I see my Doctor. 

So I put the matter in God’s capable hands and let it go?  Well, not quite.  This morning it was the first thing on my mind so I had to turn the issues over to God  yet again.

Today’s reading was in Matthew where Jesus was performing miracles and people were being healed!.  The verse in my Daily Meditation was “Be still, and know that I am God!,”  Psalm 46:10

So I take His word that He is an all powerful God and then I feel peace.  That is really what we all want is to feel, peace and not be anxious and in turmoil over our circumstances.

What a gift, if I only believe.

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Church Day

Today I went to the church I found on google.  I was nervous about attending but I need not have been.  Everyone was friendly and very informal.  It was a relaxed and loving atmosphere.  These people just  sincerely wanted to worship God and learn from the word more of his ways.

The group numbered about 25 with a good mix mostly young but a few elderly as well.  I felt welcome and at home.

We sang and worshipped God for about 20 minutes then had coffee and snacks for about 15 minutes, then the Pastor read from the Bible and shared about it.  The service started at 10:30 and ended at 12.

The church has gone high tech with the music from the computer displayed on a screen in the front.  Much easier than holding a hymn book. The ESV English Standard Version the translation was used.  I may have to let go my hold on King J.  The claim the ESV makes is that it is an accurate translation of the original in everyday English.  Gee, giving up my Thees and Thous may take awhile.

The scripture today from John 7:37-38  “If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink.  whosoever believeth in me, as the scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.'”

I don’t know about you but I have a thirst for something more in my life.  I desire to be fulfilled and any emptiness or longing for something more will be filled.  I want more meaning and purpose in my life.

I will come again.  It seems strange for now because I haven’t been attending church regularly for 24 years.  Hopefully it will become once again a central vital part of my life.

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